Friday, August 3, 2007

Cate Unplugged

So....I've been MIA for a few weeks. I've been overwhelmed by so many things.

I was so very overwhelmed by your outpouring of support and caring comments and emails. I don't think I can every properly thank any of you for that. It has meant so much.

I've been overwhelmed by the sheer number of posts still left unread in my Google Reader. I'm sure they are all beautifully written and pee-my-pants funny as usual....yet I've had no time to read them. I have no idea what is going on with all of my bloggy friends and daily reads, and that makes me feel crappy. And kind of lonely.

I have been overwhelmed by all the work on the house that needed to be done in such a short period of time to be able to sell it. It's officially been on the market for two weeks now, and we still have stuff to do. It's like the never-ending makeover!

I've been overwhelmed by the return of too many aspects of my PPD, and am dealing as best I can with my change in medication. But I'm so very tired all the time. It's like I'm being forced to be lazy, if that makes any sense...I don't like it.

I've been overwhelmingly overwhelmed by my 2 year old's refusal to eat. There have been a few ups and way too many downs. This is the worst rollercoaster ride EVAH! (Hi Sara, Jennifer and Heather...picked this word up from you...hope you don't mind me using it!)

I'm overwhelmed with guilt for the fact that my wonderful brother and his wife had a beautiful baby boy on July 14th...my first nephew, and this fucking house-selling shit hasn't allowed us time to make the 3 hour trip to see them. I didn't even post an announcement or pics or anything on my blog! What kind of a sister/sister-in-law/aunt am I???

All of this made me feel the need to unplug. Completely. I haven't posted anything. I haven't read anyone elses posts. I've checked my email every few days just to see if there are any emails from our Real Estate Agent....but I've only read about 8 emails in the past few weeks, and I rarely reply. I haven't been trying to be rude....I just need to completely cut off from everything and everyone.

But I feel like I'm coming out of the cloud now. It might take a while before I'm back to almost-daily posts, but for what it's worth I'm glad to be back.

I apologize to all of my fave bloggers who may have feel like I abandoned them. I promise I will be reading again soon...I may not comment on every post, but I'll definitely be leaving a few words here and there!

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10 comments:

Bananas said...

I'm glad to see you back online! But understand the need to unplug for a while... You gotta keep it manageable, afterall... don't try to catch up on everyone's blogs, that's my excellent advice.

Amanda said...

There's no absence, no amount of time, that could break the bond, sweet friend, none at all.
Fierce hugs out your way.

Jennifer said...

Take all the time you need, Cate. You have no responsibility to us out here in the blogosphere...we'll be here when you're ready.

A great big hug to you. I'm here if you need, k?

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad you're back. Don't feel too pressured to start posting regularly and catching up on your reading - we will all be here waiting until you are good and ready. I'm sending some hugs your way. :)

Kimberly Vanderhorst said...

Your sanity comes before my selfishness. Miss you tons, and will be here whenever you decide to plug back in. Let go of the guilt, and let yourself have a vacation from at least one of the many things piled up on your plate! ~big hugs~

Anonymous said...

Nothing at all wrong for taking a time out when you need it. You know we are always here for you. ((Hugs))

Sarahviz said...

Take care of you first. That's what matters most. We're here.

Shauna Loves Chocolate said...

Take care, Cate.
E-mail me if you ever need to. I'm here.
And take as much time as you need for yourself. That's the first thing. And never apologize for putting yourself first.
Love you!

Heather said...

Girlfriend, no need to apologize for doing what you need to do for yourself.

Hang in there.

Lainey-Paney said...

Well...I kind of abandoned others too for a while. While you were going through a rough time...so were we. I posted throughout, but didn't read & comment like I used to.

Glad you're back.
and I'm back too.